||[Feb. 25th, 2007|09:27 pm]
this is a break in the tide and i can feel myself drowning. i take a deep breathe and the salty water floods into my mouth. my eyes are frozen open and i can feel my toes in trinkets along the ocean floor. my body is heavy against the current and the motion of my heart moves in sequence. i cant reach out my hand nor move my legs to walk upon the sea but yet i float to you and the waves relinquish my stride.
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please forgive me for substituting and for fearing and for pretending and for never having just the right words to express this unfailing feeling of heartache. good heartache.